Learn the Epstein Lesson
You were used. Lied to. Deceived. And then betrayed. You served your purpose, for people who don't give a crap about you, and view you as livestock. No, it wasn't just a policy difference, or some well-intentioned but misguided agenda. Despicable people used you and stabbed you in the back. Until you face it, and acknowledge it, you're just asking for more of the same.